worrying

too much. I had my doctor's visit yesterday and came away confused plus annoyed.

Why was I annoyed because I told her that I had obtained my records from my previous doctor as I was so bad at remembering dates and such things. To be honest I have never had problems with my period until the last few years, came like clockwork, so had no need to remember. As I handed her the papers re my ablation, she made the following comment 'you wouldn't understand the report anyway."

I was blow away that someone in this day and age would actually say something like that. Hasn't she heard about the Internet and all the information that is available there? Jeeze, if I hadn't been so proactive with my health, I wouldn't have been diagnosed with my under active thyroid until a lot later, I wouldn't have found out that an under active thyroid predisposes you to high cholesterol levels and diabetes. Because of that I changed my diet a lot over the years which has resulted in my levels being near normal. My aim eventually is get of the meds but that will be a harder one to tackle.

Anyway yesterday I had a ultrasound because of the bleeding I have been having. My blood test in January had seemingly put me on the cusp of being menopausal but obviously as I have just had 2 periods, this isn't so. Because they couldn't find my left ovary (which must be good sign as it must be so small) I ended up with a vaginal ultrasound. At one time, during the exam, the lady said, 'are you spotting now'? Not a good sign in my book, especially as I wasn't!

Anyway with the exam finished I waited for the doctor, who I could hear in the hall, congratulating a couple on the happy news (baby). She came swinging into the room and without really looking at the notes, began by saying my biopsy was OK (no way it wouldn't be as I have had a ablation which it makes near nigh impossible to get a good sample) but my endometrial lining was on the thick side (10.5mm, should be less than 5mm in perimenopause or menopause). We would monitor that with another ultrasound in three months, no mention of alternatives which was odd as she knows I have adenomysosis which can only be resolved by menopause or hysterectomy.

At this point I injected her flow as she was about to get up and go, with the offer of my previous notes. She quickly looked at them and said these aren't any good, I need the post operative report. I told I thought I had given her them but she insisted they weren't there, so I gave her the biopsy report and the doctor's summary of findings. No they weren't the right ones either. Are you sure, the previous papers weren't the right ones I ask, trying to take hold of them and pointing to page 2. Ah yes that's its. Oh that's why your lining is back, she used the roller ball technique which is very old fashioned and not successful (articles on the Internet doesn't indicated it any more or less successful than other types of ablation) Can I get a copy of these? Of course you can and with that she was gone!

On reflection I realised I should have been more proactive and asked why I should wait 3 months but it was obvious at the time, everyone was in hurry to get out for lunch (it was 1pm), so I left confused and annoyed. Not a good thing as I can be obsessive about things if they are impinging in my mind a lot.

Update
contacted a local doctors office and doing a repeat ultrasound is normal procedure so no more worrying. Now, to get at least a temporary job!