Well, I finally bit the bullet and rejoined weight watchers today. I had been thinking about it for a while and had actually joined the online version. However, its all too easy to avoid actually logging in and getting on with the weight gain.
Sad to say, that 2 yrs after my last meeting I have regained all the weight I lost that time and some more. This is the heaviest I have been in my life and I really don't know how I did it (I do, I ate too much). When I was younger I had a serious eating disorder, bulimia which had started out being days of starving myself but then I had to give into my desire to eat. Of course in the late 70's early 80's it didn't even have a name, anorexia was known about but not bulimia. When I finished college in 1980, I knew what I was doing wasn't right as I had that year been admitted to hospital with severe stomach pains and anemia. However, the doctor really hadn't come across this disorder so did what he thought was best, referred me to a sex therapist. Obviously that didn't work as I was still bulimic until I had my 2nd child. It wasn't until I did the art therapy course and had to go into therapy as part of the course, that I got to the root cause of it.
The weird thing is I wasn't really fat when I was younger. I still have a couple of skirts I wore before I had my eldest daughter and neither of them can fit into them, because the waists are too small. They were a UK size 14 and as my youngest daughter says, they must have resized clothes these days as they currently wear US size 9/11 clothes. I really would like to get back to that size again but I am realistic enough to know that wont happen. However, I really would like to become fitter than I currently am.
My husband isn't very convinced I will succeed and I don't blame him. 2 years ago I went back to the UK for 6 weeks. Prior to that, I had managed to lose 30+ lbs by attending weight watcher meetings. By the time I got back, I had practically regained 20lbs of that. I foolishly thought I could lose it on my own but I was so wrong!
Trouble is I love the good things of life, UK chocolate, real cream in cakes which you just don't get over here, UK bacon as opposed the stuff they call bacon over here, beer and wine. Over here, I love the chips, although not as much as I did as they are too salty since I have cut salt from my cooking on the whole. Mexican food, my homemade curries, beer and wine.
The big different over here, is that I just don't walk as much. To get to get anywhere you need to drive. However, even with exercise I wasn't managing to lose weight. Last October I joined the local YMCA and was very good for about 5 months, going to the gym for at least an hour, 3 times a week. Then summer came and my visits became less frequent and down to zero for the school summer holidays. In the UK the summer hols last 6 weeks, here is 12 wks. As soon as I stop the exercise and continue with my current menu, I just added on the weight.
Of course once I told my youngest daughter that I was back at weight watchers she immediately thought I attacking her. To be honest, she could lose some weight but only about 14lbs as opposed to my 86lbs (yikes! just over 6st UK) and she is only 16. Things about diet and exercise are beginning to get through to her brain waves. She is currently doing a health fitness class at school and they are emphasizing the health aspect of life rather than your actual weight. Combining healthy eating with exercise, elimating the more unhealthy aspects of their diets such as sodas, candy and chips. As weight watchers is all about that as well, leading by example might help. I am certainly not a good advert at the moment.
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